[READ TILL THE END TO SEE WHAT I REALLY MEAN]
I woke up at 1pm because I had to go to the bathroom..but first of, because I was restless after dreaming of somebody from Senior High..who I simply cannot forget.. And though I have never met him again because we have our separated life since graduation..I can't get him out of my head.
Drama on: "Why..? Why is this happening to me...?" (don't imagine a really sad expression, I meant that I made a funny overacting very soap-opera like mimic =)
I've been thinking a lot to forget him, but memories of him, and how I feel for him keep arise after some period of time. I guess that's just what makes me human..to love somebody..and to feel the need of really getting to know one special person you think you can spend the rest of your life with. (but not necessarily, in my case..let's just be realistic..i'll be okay without him, I have Jesus Christ =)
Every small thing reminds me of him.. green motorcycles (because I saw he has one), beetleborgs shaped plaster mold (so I get to remember him when I see big beetles..what a pain..), and a popular name..the next most common named American male name after Bob and David.. see..when you like someone, everything got named after him..
The first thing was..Starting from the things that he said about his presentation during speaking class which theme was "My most favourite thing" and that was..his mechanic pencil..TARA!!
"... There is a secret here, when you open the pencil cap..there is an eraser in it.."
Yeah, well he said things like that..that was not really the exact sentence but I remember he presented the hidden eraser at his mechanic pencil like something that nobody of his classmates knew about and mysterious..oo...spooky...=)
That was soo cute.."Kawaii.."<3 <3 and actually ridiculous..but funny, I think I laughed a bit..because..heey..everybody knows that there are some mechanic pencils with erasers behind the cap..=D
That was the point where I fell for him, because before this..I said to myself already "He's good-looking, but I won't fall for him just because of his look, that is so wrong.."
Funny thing is..I think he has forgotten about this..because..for the same presentation..I can't even remember what "my most favourite thing" was..
well, since this happened in 2005..of course I've forgotten my presentation.. (but why do I remember yours??)
So.. is there a chance for me to get over him this year..? though this is not really my new year's resolution..it would be good not to surround my mind with him and focus and appreciate what I have now..and do what I am supposed to do..live life and share love..to others who need..
Proverb 19:17 "He that hath pity upon the poor lendeth unto the LORD; and that which he hath given will he pay him again."
Now that's a new year resolution..=)
